Season of spiritual internship, the demonstrating season before graduation.
The hardest part of healing where you question your sanity.
The season when choosing yourself is the ultimate task.
The season when doors keep closing or God tells you, it's time to close those doors.
The season when others question your sanity.
The season where you are trusting the knowing, not the seeing.
The season where trusting the process is the hardest but is the only way.
The season when your mind heart and soul must be in total alignment.
Here is something to ponder
If you are still afraid to speak your truth to someone because you fear losing them. You have more healing to do, you are not done healing.
Never fear losing anyone but yourself.
Don't be afraid to tell it how it is and walk away from anything that doesn't align with yourself.
Stop delaying closing those doors, that no longer serve you. You are delaying the doors that do. You have to clear your path of any debris before the new doors can be opened.
Oh, you thought you were going to go within and heal all those traumas, and you were not going to be tested?
Every time you heal, a test or few will come right after. How you handle those test, determine if you elevate or repeat them.
So, Someone offended you.
Are you going to take revenge? Or are you going to level up and elevate to a higher level?
You went within and cure those abandonment traumas. Here comes the test, are you going to stay in that job or relationship just to say you have a connection or job? Or are you going to stop abandoning yourself and choose yourself by walking away?
If you want to change, it comes with a price.
Your outer world is a reflection of your inner world. To change your circumstances you must start by changing from within, yes! Then demonstrate it. If you change from within but still fear demonstrating your authentic self. You are still blocking the energy signal to becoming receptive.
You can not serve two masters. Either fully be authentic in your action and also within or stay stuck.
Finally you are approaching the final steps, your graduation. Your next chapter is going to finally open and it is going to leave you speechless.
You never thought, you would have made it this far, but you did. Everyday you were taking baby steps into big steps. You keep stepping up, even when you got knockdown. You just knew, if you keep going this time you can do it. AND YOU DID!
Healing was hard, but it was worth it. Wasn't it?