From "Born" Into Adversity To Alignment: Everything In My Life Was Preparing Me For My Divine Purpose. WOW!

From Adversity to Alignment: How Everything in My Life Was Preparing Me

I was born into adversity. My family, my relationships, even the people I met along the way — they all felt karmic. Some came as teachers. Some came as mirrors. Some came as betrayals. For a long time, it felt like I was living in my own version of hell. But now, standing where I am, I see it clearly: none of it was random. Every experience was preparing me for this moment — the now.

Even my children are part of this story.

One of my children is a Gemini Sun with a Pisces Moon. The other is a Leo Sun with a Capricorn Moon. When I finally understood my own chart — my Mars retrograde in Gemini and my Saturn retrograde in Leo — it hit me. The very energies I was meant to master internally were reflected back to me through my children. Karma isn’t always punishment. Sometimes it’s sacred responsibility. Sometimes it’s healing. Sometimes it’s both.

Astrology showed me what religion alone never could: the patterns of the soul. That’s why I know astrology is not evil. Astrology is not worship. Astrology is a map — a mop to your soul, showing where the mess is so you can clean it up. Astrology didn’t tell me who to be. It showed me how to heal.

Through my Chiron in Aries, I learned that my healing comes from courage — from choosing myself, from standing up, from leading even when my voice shakes. That’s how I healed. Everything I needed was already written into me.

So when people told me spirituality was evil, or astrology was wrong, something deep inside me knew that wasn’t true. I didn’t learn this intellectually — I knew it energetically. Energy has always been my first language. I could read energy before I ever had words for it. I felt truth in my body before I could explain it.

Because I understand the laws of the universe — cause and effect, balance, reciprocity — I made it a priority to be kind. Truly kind. I was kind, but I was never fake-nice. I learned humility. I learned restraint. I learned not to lead with ego.

And now I finally understand why procrastination followed me for so long. It wasn’t laziness. It wasn’t fear alone. It was timing. The universe slowed me down because going ahead of time would have hurt me. There were lessons I had to learn piece by piece. One of the most important was free will. I learned never to interfere with someone else’s free will — because doing so carries consequences far beyond what people realize. That lesson alone changed how I move through the world.

Every betrayal. Every Judas. Every relationship that brought adversity. It all had to happen. Those experiences shaped my discernment. They stripped illusion. They matured me. They brought me to the final stage of my healing — the stage that comes before visibility, before leadership, before stepping fully into purpose.

Now I understand something else too: alignment was never about forcing manifestation. What was meant for me was already with me when I came into this world. The work wasn’t to chase it — the work was to align with my higher self so it could come through.

“Seek ye first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all things shall be added unto you.”

I finally understand what that means. The kingdom is within. God is within. Once you find that — truly find it — things begin to line up naturally, not because you demand them, but because you’re finally standing where you’re meant to stand.

I’m still under a veil. I can feel it. But it’s lifting — slowly, deliberately, piece by piece. I’m not meant to rush. Right now, my greatest prosperity comes from alignment, from service, from working without attachment to outcome. That’s where provision flows in — quietly, steadily, without force.

This season is about isolation, integration, and preparation. About going inward one last time. About fasting from noise. About listening more than speaking. And when the time comes — when God decides — I’ll be seen again. Not because I pushed myself forward, but because the moment arrived.

I wasn’t ready before. Now I am. The procrastination wasn’t for nothing. It was for something. Every challenge, every karmic lesson, every moment of hesitation, has been preparing me to live from within, to trust my intuition, and to step fully into purpose.

Everything makes sense now. I am aligned. I am ready. And when the time comes for my gifts to be seen, they will be — not because I demand it, not because I force it, but because the universe has been preparing me for exactly this moment.